Further to my worries about communicating that I referred to the other day, I am having increased trouble communicating with anyone. So much so, that I am avoiding at all times conversations with anyone……. So much so, that I am rapidly gaining the impression of the “strong, silent, man”. I am silent in conversations….. This is not a new thing, as I was also silent for my whole life, avoiding chat with anyone with a fanatical effort at all times. I was the one that at a party stood silently apart, and took no part in general chat. This was a real problem when I was working in museums and such like, when they had an opening party for a new exhibition, I used to stand apart, silently…. Taking no part in the various festivities.
I talked to my colleagues, but not to others who I didn’t know, which was embarrassing for me and useless for the institute I worked for. The idea of a Production Manager or a model maker who was silent was an embarrassment for all concerned! I used to hold conversations in my head, but not aloud! Which was embarrassing and rather pointless!
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